Hai..
I don't now where should I start my words.
Do you ever feel like hati you sedih sampai you menangis but you dont even know why it happened? All you wanna do is just crying and hoping for something better to heal you so that all the pains in your heart hilang and just go with the flow.
Sometimes, I miss my previous life where I don't have to think more about others. That moment when I feel like I can stand on my own feet. That day when I know I'm a very strong lady. But what is going on now Awa? Why you've been so weak lately?
I'm an ordinary girl. I'm trying to be as much strong as I could be. I wanna keep on standing in a situation where everyone prefer to just give up. But, how much strong a lady could be, there will always a part when they need someone to comfort them.
I don't feel like people can hadap dengan perangai I if they just got to know me dalam dua tiga second. I admit it, perangai I teruk. 'Teruk' here isn't about being sosial or melepak malam malam buta or what. You know when you have to deal dengan org yang banyak songeh and you rasa menyampah gila. Yang banyak songeh tu, that is me.
Ayah and Umi and Along and Izzah. They are the only one yang can accept me for who I am. The only one yang keep loving me for my good and bad. The only one yang keep on supporting me even when my decision sometimes is out of mind. Why? Because they know me well. They can accept my bad. They appreciate my good as well.
I need my strength back. If possible, I wanna have my previous life back. My sorrow, my strength, my happiness, my time where I just need to think about my life with my family. Only cinta Ayah and Umi. My compliment till Jannah.
Ayah is my only hero forever. Even one day I'll get married, Ayah will always be my very first hero. A man with a very big heart. Tak pernah lekang dengan kata kata semangat. Too protective because he loves his queen and princesses too much. I dont think that I can find someone like him out there.
Moga Allah permudahkan segala urusan. Moga Allah guide hati ni untuk buat pilihan yang tepat when I have to make a very difficult decision.Amin..
